I went to Fred Meyer's to fix the charges. They seemed to refund the $80 and the price of the two TV things. Later this afternoon when I looked at my bank account it turns out all they did was charge me another $32 on top of the other money. I just checked it again since the banks are closed. They have over charged me $130 at this point. I go back tomorrow, Friday, to try again.

Yesterday I went to Fred Meyer to buy two of those TV converters that I will need in a few months. I don't have cable. I sent for and received two $40 certificates toward these converters. I picked out two gave over the $80 worth of cards and paid a little for the converters. This morning I checked my bank account and found that the incompentent clerk not only charged me for the TV things but the $80 in coupons I gave him. My bank account was low as it was. It did not take an extra $80 hit very well. It made me overdrawn. I was able to cover it by transferring some savings that I had. But I am pissed. I am going there today and they better correct it. I'm angry.

I have been reading a lot of political news on the CNN website. I just read about how McCain invented the Blackberry. He is special. Especially since it was created in Canada.

So I started to look at happy stories like how a baby squirrel was rescued in Texas. It had cute video of this tiny little creature. The whole story took an ugly turn for me when the woman describing the squirrel, Izzy,  said it would be "climbing trees and running into the road in no time." Run into the road? That is bad. Don't run into the road little squirrel!!!!

Mike the boyfriend is back and the drama has begun again. I just heard them yelling. Then they came over and ask for playing cards. Mike went into the apt, made a phone call while I was talking to Laura then came out and announced he was leaving. I took the opportunity to duck back into my apt. They are starting up being loud again now.  28 days of peace over.

My neighbor who was in alcohol treatment came home a couple of hours ago. The best news about that is that she took the dying ugly plant inside. I have a feeling she put it outside right before she left so I would water it. It will be interesting to see the raucous that occurs in the next week or so.

On a good note for this neighborhood, I lol because I am not used to areas like this, I heard a rumor that the crack dealer that runs this block likes me and has threatened anybody with harm that either comes near me, my things or my newly homed neighbor, Laura.  I was nice to him without having any idea who he was. Whether that is true or not I don't know. Laura's boyfriend who stole her money told me that.

I have started learning Dreamweaver again so I can put up the first rough draft of my website soon. My goal is by the end of Sept. I hope it will be up in the next two weeks.

My mind tends to be curious about the little petty things sometimes. For example I have been watching a lot of old western TV shows lately. All the drivers of the carriages, buckboards, stages etc... drive on the right side of the rig.  If I recall correctly the steering wheel of the first car was in the middle of the automobile. How did it end up on the left side?

I figure this might be a good place to ask my simple and pointless questions as they pop into my mind. I am starting to take to blogging. So far it has been like journaling. I figure soon I will be upgrading it to something that is interesting for people to read.

BTW the darned plant still lives.  I think my neighbor is home but she is a hermit when she drinks and is not doing crack. She just got out of rehab so I am assuming she went directly to 7-11 for the cheap beer she likes. Seriously. As I think I said her rehab was for the legal system not for her to get sober. She is not watering the plant so hopefully within the next month it will expire.

OK, this is one of those things that no one every believes you when you tell them so I decided to post it and make if official as opposed to just writing it in my journal.  I really believe McCain is going to win the election. Every once in a blue moon I get these funny feelings and then just "know" stuff. I was reading an article about McCain, looked at his photo and that feeling came over me. Sorta like a prediction I guess.  I hope I am wrong and will eat my words happily if that is the case.

I thought a lot about whether to post this because I figure it is going to make me look somewhat insane. Or at least that I believe in imaginary things. The same thing happened to me before Bush was elected the second time.

On lighter or more sane news. Charlie the cat's boyfriend is back.  He hasn't jumped on the ledge of my window recently that I know of. But he is prowling. I just caught sight of him. He is thinner than he was before. He needs to catch mice instead of wooing my cat.

And finally plant news. The ugly plant just will not die. It looks limp but still green.

This has been another episode of tantalizing news by Cali.

It is still too hot for me. I have an air conditioner in my bedroom. I have basically been prisoner in it for the last few days. Hopefully the weather will break and be cooler.

I had a good chat with my dad today which is unusual, especially since it was about money. He was agreeable and nice. I thought I should put this in writing in order to remind myself in the future that this can actually occur.

The ugly plant is now limp enough that it is not sticking in my screen door anymore but still alive enough that if it is watered it will perk up. Someone left her a jar with flowers in it which are now dead too. The front porch of her apt. is where plants go to die. I don't know how long my neighbor is going to be in rehab. At least this time no one moved in and started selling crack like when she went to jail a couple of months ago. I try and stay jolly but sometimes there is a bitterness I have toward her.  She could work and be healthy and productive if she were to stop drinking. She and her boyfriend just sit around and drink  beer all day and night. What a waste of life. It seems like they are just passing the hours until they die. I do not want to ever do this. I hope I continue to try to squeeze out as much out of life as I can. The MS makes this more difficult but also more urgent.

Viva la life!

It is 11:30 PM Friday.  My apartment is hot.  I have my windows open and the fans on trying to get it down to a reasonable temp. With my MS heat effects me in a bad way. I worked tonight for four hours at Blockbuster. It had been weeks since I had been there. I forgot how grueling just those few hours are for me. I do not feel well right now. I am too wound up to go to sleep because of work. I am uncomfortably hot and in more pain than usual. Wound up but fatigued. It is times like this when I get frustrated. Working for four hours physically hurts and is difficult. I get so mad that I can't just even be semi normal when it comes to work. Tomorrow is supposed to be hotter than today. I am expecting to feel pretty sick.

Sometimes I am able to ignore my MS. Ignore the numbness in my hands and feet and the slight drag my left leg has that I hide very well. Other times like tonight it just rises up like a huge billboard reminding me of my fragility and my hurdles. It is something I want to scream at and berate. But I cannot see it. I cannot yell at it.  It is more elusive than a fine mist. It is inside me and I cannot control it. I can try a thousand different ways to approach my four hour shift at Blockbuster and deal with my MS, but I always have the same outcome.

I guess I just wait to see what tomorrow brings.

Current Mood: drained

One of my neighbor's plants is completely dead. The one I sorta liked. The ugly one is hanging on for dear life. It is wilted but that only means it now gets caught in my screen door.  The word on the street is that my neighbor is in rehab for awhile. This, I was told, is not because she wants to get sober, but a legal thing. This message was told to me as if it was obvious. She plans on drinking as soon as she gets out. She leads a sad life in my opinion.